During the height of lockdown 2020, spiritual leaders, motivational speakers, influencers, and everyone and his dog were theorising about the ‘positivity of change’ and how this was a good thing for us. The Universe was long overdue for a seismic shift and so on.

 

Confusing for some, understandably. I appreciated the bigger picture at that time. I could see it. However. And this is a big BUT. The catastrophe of COVID-19 was so intense, immediate, and mind-altering in a way that we had never ever experienced before, that the lived reality negated the beauty of witnessing the birthing of a better world order.

 

My body, mind, soul trilogy was out of sync.

 

My mind understood that all this was necessary and actually, expected. There was sufficient evidence of that. But my body had other ideas. My body, mind, soul trilogy was out of sync. And as much as I tried to meditate the headaches and physical pain away, my body was on strike, it would not cooperate.

 

Hindsight is the power of reflection. In a relatively short space of time, just two years, the personal growth has been incredible. It’s prepared me for my next life phase #50in2022. COVID-19 has been a gift for me and my family, our foursome. It’s given Mr. T and I space to reset, even in the chaos when it’s hard to raise one’s gaze above. Even though much of it was not intentional.

 

The biggest lesson from all this is that ‘going with the flow’, a popular colloquial phrase, is so much deeper than ‘chilling’. Flow is the essence of the Universe. When we struggle, when we do not accept what is, what is in front of us – good or bad – we’re in disagreement with the ultimate energy of the Source.

 

“Where focus goes, energy flows”, Tony Robbins.

 

My last post shared our trip to the uniform shop – new school supplier – in December. I had every intention of going online thereafter to buy the items the boys had tried on for sizing. The sole reason for taking them shopping. Anyway, since my heart was not in it, I didn’t do it. “Where focus goes, energy flows”, Tony Robbins.

 

I eventually decided, on 5 January, a week before school opens, to go back to the store to ‘quickly’ get what I needed. Unsurprisingly, I didn’t find everything that I wanted. But I was surprisingly relaxed about it. The old supplier still has stock. Some of which are on sale.

 

So, even though their quality was a bone of contention for many parents, including myself, hence the school eventually introducing a new uniform supplier, I took responsibility for my lack of attention and accepted that I had to get a few items from the old supplier.

 

But I won’t be a ‘negligent’ mother for now. Flow.

 

What’s the big deal about this otherwise minor incident? It’s huge for me. Flow. By the way, my last resort would have been that they would wear their old uniforms, even if the shorts are “cheeky” for M and tight for K, and the tops hang on their waists until new stock arrives. But I won’t be a ‘negligent’ mother for now. Flow.

 

As we prepare for school opening on Thursday, 13 January – my tween is now in Grade 3 and my baby starts Grade 1 – I release the angst I’ve been feeling about the coordination of the packed lunches, the dropping off and fetching, the homework, all the routine that comes with the school cycle. Sometimes I think it’s just age for me. Others seem fine with all of this.

 

My mantra for 2022? You guessed it, Going with the flow. Who’s coming with me?

 

“Happiness is not the absence of problems; it is the ability to deal with them.” Steve Maraboli

 

In loving memory of Aunty D. 09.01.2021. Still in our hearts and minds.